Random musings? how does that even fit into the same sentence as commitment? I mean there’s nothing random about commitment is there? Probably not, but musing on a lot of different aspects of commitment today.
First, there’s the frustration that my Clematis can’t seem to commit to climbing the trellis it’s supposed to climb. I mean that’s what a Clematis is supposed to do isn’t it? Just climb already! why do I have to keep tying you up to the trellis? But maybe it’s about me not being committed enough to have cut away last year’s growth so that the new growth this year would have easy access to the trellis. But hey, I’m new at this cultivation of Clematis thing. How was I supposed to know that it wouldn’t climb last year’s growth? I guess I just have to commit to tying it up!
And then there’s the weather. I wish the forecasters and the weather could just commit to being on the same page. Don’t get me wrong, I love the fact that this past weekend we finally got the rain that was in the forecast. maybe not quite as much as they were suggesting we might get, but still, a nice shot. Not sure if that makes up for the last three weeks of frustration about getting told to expect rain and getting tiny showers instead. That’s OK, we love what we got! Very thankfull!
And then there’s the commitment to pessimism. I work with farmers, and they have a bad rap for being pessimistic, but does the weather network really have to fuel that pessimism by telling us that we are in for a doozy of a drought this summer? Ironically, this beef goes along with the last one. The weather network says we will have a record drought, while their forecast for the next 10 days calls for showers nearly every other day- really?
On a more serious note, I’m beefing about myself. How come, when I’m lonely, aching for a hug, do I get afraid of potential relationships? I know I’ve been burned before, but really, freezing up at the concept of a date? That’s taking it a little far. Time to open up my toolbox and work on some fears and coping skills, I suppose.
And then there’s commitment to self improvement. I know I need to work on forgiveness of myself and others. I know I need to stop a bad habit or two. I know I need to start a good habit or two- working out wouldn’t be that bad, would it? Ah, motivation and commitment, I’d love to get to know the two of you a little better!
Truly trying to see commitment as not necesarily a bad word, I remain the man that I am,